Random Thoughts and Feelings...

My sister Sandy is in a lot of pain lately. She had to have something done and so she is under constant care and attention. It is hard, as a big sister, to see tears pool in your baby sisters eyes because of the amount of pain she is in. It like goes against my personal nature or whatever to see her in pain, to see her cry, to see her scared. It is my job, or calling even, to protect my sisters from whatever I can. Even if they don't want that protection, it is going to be here, for them, no matter what they say. Or do. Anyways...

Although when she is on painkillers, she is a riot. She babbles and about the oddest subjects. Everything from the insurance thing passing, to the thermometer they used on her, to random facts about dogs or tv or anything. And she often repeats herself without realizing it. LOL. Sandy doesn't babble that much on a regular basis, so her babbling while essentially higher than a kite, just cracks us all up. It is just so cute.

One thing I was not expecting though, was the quality time I would get with her in the last few days. She has shown up around 2 am, not able to sleep, for an hour or two, and just been there. And while it has interrupted my normal schedule of watching shows and stuff, it has been so nice having one on one time with her. We are a family, so often it is 3 or 4 or the 5 of us. But one on one time with people is not that easy to come by a lot of the time. Everyone wants to watch the movie, or go to the mall or whatever. And while you treasure those moments too, as a Sisters Day or a Mom and Daughter day, A Night with Dad and the girls day...a you and so and so, is really nice too.

Sandy is a loner, so she just wants to be left to her own devices, or what not. So getting her to hang out with just me, is not something that happens that often. Especially times where she will just talk about whatever is on her mind. I tell her all the time, you can talk to me about anything, but she is extremely private also. So last night, having her for two hours, and just chatting about random topics was nice. And tonight we watched Castle together and I kept an eye on her. Her letting me take care of her when she actually NEEDS it, is also rare. It was just nice to have my Sandy, unguarded, to myself. It reminded me how much I enjoy her company, just her and me.