Hair Trauma...Code Red

Like I mentioned, things just aren't going my way, especially lately. Today we decided to do my hair. So I got my Beauty Salon self on and brought out the color and developer and my new mixing bowl and brush, etc. I mixed everything up and, first, DANG it stank. They don't sell those little essence oil things boxes contain. Second, I worried if the stuff was even mixed but I did it until it was totally mixed. My Mom added the goop and I sat in the chair for 25 minutes, getting all excited, that I figured out a color and how to get it on my head. It was like, so THERE Feria, for discontinuing my color! When my time was up I went and took a shower, and it took forever for the water to run clear. But I already knew it wasn't right. Scrubbing your head like that you pull strands out, and normally when I do it flaming red, the strands are thing orange red color. These were not. They were dark. Like, nothing happened or barely did dark.

I went downstairs already knowing I had failed. All I wanted was my HAIR to look right, be the one thing about me that would seem Merry. Nope. Katie dried it and they were all, it is a lovely color, so pretty. But I HATED it. I was auburn. Uhm I did not spend $47 on a hair color I have done with a BOX. That color I can go and buy and it is all good, the color I wanted was flaming red and this was not anywhere near my flaming red. This is the color swatch of the color I picked up at Sally's Beauty Supplies:

LOOKS like my flaming red color right?!!! Well this is not anything like what I got. THIS was what I got, actual pic too:

Do these two look anything alike to you?!! If you say yes, you need your eyes checked, and you need to take a class in color, like paint colors. NOT anything alike. And I used 2 bottles of color, just like I always have to, my hair is so thick. And I measured perfectly, so why the heck did I not get the color further up?! So I was enraged...but mostly I just wanted to cry. No one understood, I wanted bright merry red, not a dull auburn, I had the auburn ALL Fall! I needed this one thing. I knew I was going down to Sally's tomorrow to get something that would give me what I wanted, but it bothered me so much that I couldn't fix it tonight. I felt defeated. Then my Mom was like let me go look at the haircolors upstairs. We have various shades I have used or almost used over the last few years up there. But I was like, there is NO way I have Feria R75 up there, I would have noticed. My Mom found 2 boxes of R75. The last R75 I will ever see. She also knew I would do it myself that night if I had to, because I am an Obsessive Compulsive, so this was not going to leave my brain alone.

So we went through the process again, though since it was the box, my Mom just had to pour and smoosh in. I went and showered...again...I am so itchy from dry skin. I was worried because it looked brighter, but not the bright I am used to. My Mom says I am crazy. That my perception is skewed because I am down about everything. But it is close I THINK to my Merry red. The auburn might have made it a little darker is what I think. It is usually faded when I do my hair, and I had just colored it n hour and a half ago. No, I did not care if my hair fell out. I have done this before though people, so I knew my hair could handle being colored twice. So here is me now. I even plastered on a fake smile to look merrier. How'd I do? Do I LOOK Merry now? Look at my profile pic, admit it, it is a tad less flaming.

My Mom and I are stopping by Sally's tomorrow still, to show the clerk what I WANT my hair to look like next time, and have them tell us what we need from them to achieve it. Because my last seller from Amazon is all out, so R75 is indeed dead now. Oy. I told you nothing is going good or remotely easy lately.

Can you tell this one is a fake smile? I actually have the sorta dimple showing, so I think it looks genuine.