Monday, July 6, 2009

The Good and The Bad

We went and had my dinner and movie portion of my Birthday today! Outback was so not crowded so I was happy. Sadly they did not have my Creamy Potato soup but it is okay, I managed! LOL! I shared the filet mignon with my Mom and it was so good. And our waiter sucked so bad, he never showed up asking if we wanted refills, he only showed up to ask about our meals after 3 of us were DONE, he just was crappy. And then he was gone again and I was like I am gonna go sit outside on bench, it was another pretty day, and so because of the guy I found out I was supposed to be sung too and get ice cream, so the girls' surprise was ruined, they were mad too, we waited for like 25 minutes before he finally showed up. But it was delicious, it had oreo crumbles all along the bottom, mmmmm.
Then we went and saw my movie FINALLY!! As soon as the credits started I was clapping my hands! LOL! Yes I am that much of a geek for this franchise!! I waited too, I was so ready to see it the day it was released and stayed away from cheating sites, so I would not ruin it for myself! And I refused to let critics bad opinions influence me! I LOVED it!! Yes there is a LOT of robot fight scenes but the movie is called TRANSFORMERS! If it was mostly Shia then it would be the story of the Transformers!! There were more cuss words, I swear the only one in the first is that annoying lil robot saying "oh s%@#", this one had more but it wasn't that much compared to what is on some tv shows, so whatever, I didn't care. I loved it! I got really upset at one point, you who have seen it will know why, but it ended with me smiling and yes, the only person in the theater clapping!! LOL! My Mom has agreed to buy it for me the day it gets out! YES!

So that was a good day. But I have refrained from talking about something really bothering me because I didn't want to think about it (as much as possible) let alone talk about it on my birthday. I am having issues with someone, I have mentioned "this" in some other posts in the last few months. Apparently this person wrote my father and claimed I had [put up things I am not allowed to. Ummm....say what? I walked back up to my room because I have just had it. After I changed I opened the door and heard myself being talked about. My sister was defending me telling my parents I had nothing about the unmentionable up.

Sandy reads my blog every day. I have been fine with Sandy reading it, she is my sister and rarely mentions my blog unless it is to laugh at something I said or vlogged, like kicking my own butt. But these people are not supposed to EVER look at it again, it is a condition on them never being mentioned by name and pics posted of them now up. So I am furious. Sandy was so furious she got my Dad to see that these accusations were unfounded and these people had no right to even be saying ANYTHING. He did want to see my blog and wanted to see that my Facebook account IS private, when he got back. Yeah, am I totally okay with that? No. Not that my parents and sisters can't read my blog, if they want to okay. Because I don't like lying or hiding things.So I am not a liar and Sandy backed me up saying I had done nothing wrong

Thanks guys, I needed to vent about this. I am so sick of having my blog being used as a weapon against me. Finding friends, expressing my true self and being accepted. The horrible people would have that taken from me.

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Kristina P. said...

Wendy, I'm sorry that your birthday turned into something sad and anxious.

I don't know what the answer is. I choose not to talk about my family or people in my life because I know these kinds of things can happen.

I'm a big fan of writing a letter that only you will see, getting everything out, and then burning it.

I just worry for you that when you post your frustrations on here, it only makes things worse for you. It's not fair, and yes, you should be able to say what you want, but it seems like they are already paranoid of what you put here, which then causes YOU stress. And I can just see them cutting you off from a certain person.

I hope things improve someday.

Wendyburd1 said...

See me getting to post my frustrations was part of the "agreed upon" thing. And since they were no longer supposed to read this blog, there should be no problem with these "relatives". As long as I didn't post names and pics of these certain people. And I have followed that. They just can't stop demanding more and more. They won't be satisfied until I agree to delete my blog. And as that is something I won't do, let alone for them, I think I will always be given a hard time. Some people like to have control over others, and I finally grew a backbone of my own.

And I am starting to think, if you can only live your life if you agree to be under someone elses control, that isn't much of a life, you know? I did what was demanded of me, and can't give anymore without risking losing myself in the process. And I really don't like the idea of having no control over my own existence. One person can only do so much, hold their hand out for so long. If someone else doesn't grab it, that hand will eventually fall. Now I am going on in metaphors that probably only make sense to me.

I hope things can improve, but am starting to feel like maybe someone doesn't want them too and that would be their decision and not in my hands.

Jessica♥ said...

personally, I hated Transformers 2, I really enjoyed the first one though. =] Gosh it sounds like these family members areUPER ANNOYING! ugh. It's your blog. You can do whatever you want with them and they have no right to harras you over it. If you're not mentioning them or their last names or have pictures of them they need to get a life, they can't take your blog down, only you can. and there's just nothing they can do about it.

Jillene said...

First--Happy belated Birthday!! I had no Internet on the actual day so I am sorry I missed it!!

Second--Outback. YUMMY!! Nuff said. And I can't wait to see the movie!!

Last--Maybe you should make your blog private. That way they can't read it. Ever. Just a thought.

Lee said...

Oh, and Happy Belated Birthday! Forgot to tell you that!

Mmm... I haven't been to Outback in forever. It sounds so yummy right now.

If you make your blog private, they can't bother you.
I was thinking about doing that because of Alex.

Yaya said...

Dear People Hasseling Wendy,
STOP reading this blog and GET OVER YOURSELF! You are not that important. You are not worth the tears.

Sorry you are still going through family drama. And no you didn't put any pictures on your blog. And in today's world of facebook, yada yada yada, everyone's pictures are everyone's business. They're just trying to blame you to start trouble. Ugg...this is making me SO irritated! I'm so sorry you are going through this.

The critics dumped on Transformers but I have yet to read a real person's review be bad. They've all said awesome things.

Tori_z said...

I know some people like that. It really sucks that people can't seem to leave others alone. I swear people like that aren't happy unless they're making someone else's life miserable. It's your blog, and I think it's very unfair of them to be telling you what you can and can't post. And, even more so, to accuse you of posting things you hadn't posted. It's as though they're determined to cause trouble and arguments.

Anyway... Belated happy birthday... Glad you enjoyed the movie.

The Boob Nazi said...

Having my blog private sucked. I hated every minute of it. So I just don't talk about some of the things I'd like to talk about. It's better than going private.

LadyStyx said...

The trouble-makers need to get a friggin grip and leave you alone (yeah, let em read THAT!)

As for poor service (or awesome service for that matter), I ALWAYS write the corporate office and have a letter sent to the branch I went to. I've had some places where service was so bad, I walked out before I even ordered. Heh. The one place , the hostess told me to have a nice day....I turned on her and ripped her a new one and when she offered to get the manager I told her dont bother because he'd not like ANYTHING I had to say and no, I wasnt coming back.

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