Today was a hard day emotionally. We had a family home evening on Stress. And we went around and had everyone say what was stressing them and suggested things maybe we could do or help with to lessen our stress. I melted down when it was my turn and it just all poured out of me, feeling like such a failure in life. Feeling like I am nothing, I have accomplished nothing, have not done anything that even leaves a mark that says I was here. Told them I was so tired of trying, that I don't want to be here anymore. I just want to be done. I am so tired. We talked about this ongoing "situation" we have been dealing with and how we have no power in fixing it, but I just can't put it in a box in my brain and put it away, I am, sadly, not equipped with those skills. The first song I am posting kind of sums up a lot of my current feelings, I just can pick out sentences from it that are so me right now and it has been a favorite of mine for a long time, so I hope you at least will give it a chance. It is long but sung so beautifully. It gives me chills. I also looked for some songs I like that are feelings I WANT to feel, Songs full of hope, that I want to feel, but just can't at this point. Give a listen, won't you? Some might give you some hope if you also feel lost.
My Feelings now are sung by Lauryn Hill in "Selah".
Now songs I WANT to FEEL.
We Are Okay - Joshua Radin
Freckles - Natasha Bedingfield
Beautiful Inside - Kirby Heybourne
Call Me Beautiful - Ginny Owens
4 meaningful meanderings:
May I suggest "Bouncin Round the Room" by Phish? Try to find it on youtube, it is SO uplifting and happy! My best friend in high school and I used to sing it duet-style :)
Music always helps intensify- or change- my mood. I love the power of a good song.
And I love that Kirby song, too!
I'm glad to see there are more songs about what you want to feel than how ou are feeling. I really hope you can get over this hump of disapointed and move on to better things.
I've got playlist for my different moods too.
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