What I need is....

...a normal sleep pattern. Please, my sandman, get back from your vacay!! I LOVE my sleep, especially during the winter when you huddle up under a million blankets. Sure those first few minutes in bed are painfully cold, then is gets all warm and nice!! So please my lovely Sandman, return to me, I will give you cookies!!

Friday night I never went to sleep. I took my Ambien, 2 Tylenol PM, and 3 Valerian root pills. NOT all at once, but once it was like 4 hours after the Ambien and PM I was willing to try anything. But I layed there and nothing. I was able to see a bunch more Lost episodes, very close to being all caught up AGAIN for the new season. I ended up going to breakfast with my Dad, we talked about family stuff,etc. We got back and I watched 1 more episode of Lost and then decided to go out shopping. We needed Walmart stuff so I went there...holy crap, what a mistake! It was January third so I thought normalcy would be back, but I really am NEVER at Walmart at noon, so I wanted to scream, SO many people in lines that I couldn't get PAST them to start shopping, and there went my plans to find some magazines and Archie comics for my Mom to read on workday morning during breakfast (okay I found 1 of each by lurching forward and running back to my cart before someone stole it). I wanted new underwear, when the leg area get loose I want to throw them all away, so I got 4 packages, and since we have a system at my house (I have colored and patterned underwear, my Mom has white, Sandy does her own laudry and Kat's are kinda bimbish and lacey and some have sayings, so easy to do laundry and NO mix-ups!) I open (they have a sticky like envelope opening, so they can be opened and closed - YES, I feel less guilty because what I used to do...NM) and pull out the whites and take the colored and leave the whites all together and buy all colored/patterned ones! I am sure most people do NOT have this system in place so I really don't feel guilty...mostly, LOL!

Then I picked up the standards, T.P., headache medicine,etc. And lucky for me, I found an checkout with only one person in front of me! SCORE! And nope, still wide awake. I decided to go to the Brass Hill mall this time, I have been to West Farms most of the time lately, and hadn't been there in forever. I spent about 2 hours walking to 2 floors....and found NOTHING! Auughhh! Sales and I find nothing I really want. Hot Topic had Twilight stuff but the cute thin tees were all the so-called "womens sizes" which means only a size 2 could fit into their XL!! Grrr! They had Rosalies and Alices necklaces. I should have bought Rosalies, it was vintage-y looking, but I didn't! And they had a Twilight perfume but I wouldn't even smell it, I knew if I LIKED it I would but this cute apple shaped red bottle, as I love perfume, but it was almost 50 bucks!! I got Chanel No. 5 at a permanent Florida flea market for 13 more!! No way!!

I got home and went to see "Yes Man" with my Mom and Dad. We got a small theater with only the almost front row open...and directly behind us? The J's!! PJ and his wife. He was BJ when he was just the Bishop but now he is President so thus PJ. And Sister J...kinda not what I see as a Jim Carrey kinda woman, so I was aware the whole time they were behind us...and let me tell ya, a few REALLY awkward times. I liked it except for one scene, but I know I would have enjoyed it more if the former Bishop and his wife were NOT directly behind us. I felt BAD for laughing during some of the swearing lines, aaaggghhh! And amazingly enough I did not fall asleep. I am notorious lately for falling asleep after a night of sleep, during movies I want to be awake for! But even being up for 24 hours, nope. I liked Yes Man. It was funny. There was even a LDS missionary moment...after the Yes began, LOL. My favorite part was the man on the ledge, if you have seen it you know why, otherwise Go see it and see WHY it made me laugh out loud even with the formr Bish behind me!

After we ate dinner at Taco Bell, I started to feel tired-ish and cold. So I took a shower but told everyone beforehand, IF I fall asleep watching tv, LEAVE me there and do not turn the TV off ( it makes me wake up!). So I was basically out of it until almost 2 in the morning when I had to pee (dang you bladder!) and woke up. I was smart, I made myself NOT go online or anything, I layed there and finished Season 3 of Lost, took my pills (hadn't needed them when I fell asleep on the couch at 8:30pm through 2, so I gave myself a lil while, so that I could ENSURE a long sleep. I fell asleep I think within 25 minutes of taking my pills. My Mom woke me up at 8:30am and I went to my room, and slept for 11 more hours. Hallelujah, it was nice. I was still tired and my Mom said I might have two nights worth of drugs in my system even though they didn't work for almost 36 hours.

I could have slept more, but I want to sleep again tonight! I don't think that is asking too much, but we will see, I had to re-up my new med again today...and I am only up to 4 pills a day. I have to get to 8! My Mom thinks my sleep problems are due to the pills so she had me stay at 3 for 2 weeks instead of 1, and I had better sleep for the most part, so we will see if I have to increase slower than my doc said. She also says it is me, that when she had problems sleeping, it was because of stress and worry, and as I am stressing and worrying, the 2 factors are not helping. We will see. The depression and stuff are still really not changed yet, but stuff getting stuck in my brain is starting to go away faster so I am a lil hopeful. As long as once I am up to 8, it IS helping and I am sleeping regularly again, I will try this med out for as long as is needed to see if this is THE med for me.