An Apology to W!

It has come to light that a comment I made awhile back on W's blog, was taken to heart. I had meant for it to be funny, a teasing remark, but it apparently was not seen as such by my dear friend, and I want her to know how sorry I am for that. I would never want to hurt your feelings, you are such a nice, wonderful person with a quirky sense of humor and an honesty I have always respected and enjoyed.

Your friendship has meant so much to me, and I had wondered where you went, why you seemed to drop from the blogging world. If I had an inkling that I hurt your feelings, even accidentally, I swear I would have talked to you immediately! I hate having my feelings hurt, so I try to not be the kind of person who does that. If I had any idea, I promise you I would have talked to you as soon as I knew, and made sure you understood what my intentions had been. They were NEVER meant to be hurtful, ever. I care too much about you, about your life with J, your life with school. I can't imagine having to deal with school, a husband and a house on my own that doesn't have people close by. I found you to be immensely brave, especially for your younger age, you stun me with your maturity and insight. I really love having you as a friend.

I am only writing this on here, as I don't think you want to read it in my email I sent you. And there have been others, offended for you by my remark, that I want to understand I NEVER wanted to hurt your feelings. That is not who I am, or who I ever want to be. I tried to be funny, or what I thought to be funny, while sleepy from JUST that one medication. I stand by the fact that my other medications do not have anything to do with what I write. So maybe I need to reread what I write while sleepy like that. I just wanted to make sure I left comments on everyone's posts, because I felt that my friends deserved the same from me. Especially W's, whose blog I have never missed, even if I get sick, I try to get online at least by day two, I don't want people to think I have forgotten them. Not when I had been met with such a warm welcome when I began just a short time ago.

So that is all I write. I never meant to hurt your feelings W. I would never want to do that. Everyone sticks their foot in their mouth unintentionally sometimes, and it looks like that happened with you and I am so sorry. Please know if I ever do that, you can talk to me if you question what I meant. Hurting my friends is not what I would ever want to do, because being hurt by friends, is so incredibly painful, I know.

Please talk to me W. I love you. I love J. I love pot.