Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Honest Scrap


...with this award i have to post 10 HONEST things about myself.

here goes:

1) I am terrified of bugs, most especially spiders! They make me freeze in terror and/or run screaming in terror. I am deathly serious.

2) I have no tolerance for anyone messing with my family. I can be rude (although when I settle down I am instantly contrite) to them, but you say even one rude comment or remark and you are dead. I may be a wimp when it comes to myself and defending me to people, but my family? I am a lioness and will not stand for ANYTHING.

3) Even though I have learned too many times not to, I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve. I try not to, being hurt too many times, but it is not something I am not capable of changing. Sucks, but there you have it.

4) I love to laugh. Even more than other people I really do think. It is such a release from the feelings in my head and heart, that I let it carry me away. It is such a release, such a relief. So anytime I can laugh I do. If something is going to happen and there will be a person at something who is guarrenteed to make me laugh so hard I can barely stop from having to pee, I SO will go.

5) I am getting sick. Even if it doesn't develop into a sinus infection like Sandy now too, though only my Mom seems to get the bronchitis part, this is a cold for sure. I am leaking from my face, I feel stuffed up and I keep having to TRY to clear my throat, though it does no good. I have been wanting to be sick, but right now, I wish it would DECIDE. Either BE sick or Not, I can't STAND the whole "am I or aren't I"? thing. Grrrrrr.

6) I can be SUCH a procrastinator, if it is something I don't really want to do. If it is something I DO want to do, I can be quite my OCD self and have that NEED I can't control to get it DONE and done NOW. I can't stop myself.

7) I still sleep with my stuffed pig Christopher, yup it is true. I am so used to having his stuffed bow tie in my hand that sometimes I need to grab him from the side of my bed and hold his tie in order to fall back to sleep. Do NOT judge!!

8) I can't handle judgmental people. They are the bane of my existence, them with their smug eyes thinking they know everything, when in reality they know NOTHING. Why is it they think they have an all knowing knowledge, when they have no knowledge of how people feel when they are sick in ways...I just can't understand it. There is NO reason why people should feel they can judge you, most especially, when they have no inside knowledge of what you are going through.

9) I am a wimp when it comes to needles,etc. I turn even whiter, if that is possible considering I am invisible as it is, and feel nauseated,etc. I am actually glad blood banks don't WANT my blood because I am a diabetic, otherwise, YIKES! I am O negative so everyone would WANT my blood, the whole universal donor thing. Katie goes in ALL the time, they are constantly CALLING!! But because of my Diabetes I can't donate and I am SO bad, I am happy i have an excuse!! I can bearly give the tubes of blood needed for blood tests, so a whole pint?!! Aggghhh!!

10) I still feel quite lost. I am not good but am glad my appointment with my psychiatrist isn't until the 10th, now that I feel like crap in a different way. I am really hoping if I get on a mood stabilizer, I will feel less...lost. Okay anyway, that is my ten honest things!

I tage the following people. And you better do it, cuz I have no energy to track you down and tell you, but if you really read my blog like you say, then you have NO excuse.

Mother Goose
Whitney R.
Erin the Great
Mommy Madness

21 meaningful meanderings:

Kristina P. said...

Laughing is definitely a good remedy for a lot of things.

rychelle said...

i hate bugs and people messing with my family and broken hearts and gettig sick and judgemental people and needles too!

i hope your appointment goes well.

The Boob Nazi said...

I don't do tags. Lo siento mucho. But if I get really bored and have nothing to blog about, I'll do it. That reminds me, I still need to do that pay it forward dangit.

Anonymous said...

You're afraid of tiny little harmless bugs that are more afraid of you?... Yeah, I don't care for needles either especially if they are aimed at me.
.....I better get around at working on my honest post before more people tag me with it....and you're right I really don't have any excuse for not posting....Thanks!!!

ramsam said...

Good honest answers, and I am so glad you didn't tag me, I have been horrible at doing them and quite frankly I am having a SH**y day and would rather not be honest at the moment.

But it is night time and tomorrow is a new day!

in time out said...

hey, awesome honest stuff/scraps . ...thanks. hope you are celebrating the beginning of christmas chaos. take care now.

please take care....hope and prayers all goes well for you!

Mary said...

I am with you on the spiders...I can't even see a picture of them without shivering and getting goose bumps!!!

Deb said...

i'm a universal donor, too!

i think you are going to feel better after your appt.

right now, you need to drink lots of o.j. and eat soup to stave off the crud! i don't want you sick!

Jillene said...

I laugh a lot too!! And people messing with my family....that means war!!

ktmay said...

whoa!! (say it like joey lawrence on blossom, LOL)...we have sooooo much in common. i could have written that post. (((except about the stuffed pig-- i do not have one of those)). but i do have a tendency to get attached to special things. i still have the quilt that was on my bed when i was a teenager. it's still in decent shape too.
i hate spiders too but i'm not so much scared of them as i just hate them with a passion. i LOATHE and DETEST the little critters. they may be worse than roaches, but it's a toss up.
i am the same way about my fam. you mess with them, you mess with me...and i can be one scary nut job when i go off on people. i've seen the fear. i'm not proud of that or anything, i'm just sayin'.
i wear my heart on my sleeve too. but that can be good and bad, in my case. i can come on too strong sometimes. and i can't pretend to like people that i don't like either. i am getting better at that though. good grief. could i be more long-winded? i agree about laughter. i love laughing. that's why i married josh. he makes me laugh so hard. my mom laughs at all of my jokes, even the really dumb ones. i love hanging out with her because she makes me feel like i'm a comedian. LOL...needles don't bother me anymore, but i used to be terrified of them like you. then i got pregnant with julian. it was a pretty difficult pregnancy, so i spent a lot of time in the hospital.i just got used to it. i can honestly say i have no fear of needles anymore. maybe you just haven't had to get used to it?
i feel the same about judgmental people, but that's something i have to work on myself at times. i don't know if it's so much judgmental though...i like people who smile back at me. like if i smile at someone and they just look at me and don't smile back- forget it. that's a huge turn off for me. is that being judgmental? i don't know. i just know that there are certain people i wouldn't go out of my way to befriend, just based on first impressions similar to that.
as for the mood stabilizers- have you ever been on those before? i have. if you want to talk about that, email me:

ktmay said...

oh my gosh. look at the length of that comment

Kristen said...

I also HATE spiders, I am trying not to pass the fear to my kids but I quiver with fear if I see one, I am finally getting to where I can kill them instead of leaving the house and calling my husband. Pathetic I know! I agree with you that laughter is a great release!

Kristen said...

Oh I forgot to add that I don't mind needles, I watched them stick it in my arm and drain the blood this last pregnancy- does that freak you out? :0)

Mina said...

Alright, I'm on it. I may not make a list, though. Just an honest essay. Does that work?

Amander said...

Okay, I will do this tag. It just may take me a while. I still have many more tags to do! And I sometimes forget when people tag me. Oops!

Anonymous said...

okay I have to find more blogging time b/c I really like you, especially honest :)

catching up on all the blogs and will post mine again tmorrow, was out of town, trying to get balanced, but that will NEVER happenn LOL

in time out said...

just came stalking by. to see how you are doing. hey, thats funny. instead of going for a walk these days, visiting the neighbors, i am going for a stalk, visiting my blogger friends. fun to see you around.

you okay? just thought I would check, and tell you I love your honest answers. take care now. ♥

Annette said...

Very honest...raw...and real! Love it! Thanks

Brigitte said...

You totally deserve this award! You are the most truthful and honest person I have met on the blogosphere! Congrats!

Cosmopolite said...

lol, I never get awards. No responsibilty on my part! wee!

Donna said...

Okay, you tagged me and I saw it. Darn it! I'll try to do this in the next couple of days or so.

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