Honest Scrap

HANK YOU In Time Out, FOR THE AWARD!

...with this award i have to post 10 HONEST things about myself.

here goes:

1) I am terrified of bugs, most especially spiders! They make me freeze in terror and/or run screaming in terror. I am deathly serious.

2) I have no tolerance for anyone messing with my family. I can be rude (although when I settle down I am instantly contrite) to them, but you say even one rude comment or remark and you are dead. I may be a wimp when it comes to myself and defending me to people, but my family? I am a lioness and will not stand for ANYTHING.

3) Even though I have learned too many times not to, I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve. I try not to, being hurt too many times, but it is not something I am not capable of changing. Sucks, but there you have it.

4) I love to laugh. Even more than other people I really do think. It is such a release from the feelings in my head and heart, that I let it carry me away. It is such a release, such a relief. So anytime I can laugh I do. If something is going to happen and there will be a person at something who is guarrenteed to make me laugh so hard I can barely stop from having to pee, I SO will go.

5) I am getting sick. Even if it doesn't develop into a sinus infection like Sandy now too, though only my Mom seems to get the bronchitis part, this is a cold for sure. I am leaking from my face, I feel stuffed up and I keep having to TRY to clear my throat, though it does no good. I have been wanting to be sick, but right now, I wish it would DECIDE. Either BE sick or Not, I can't STAND the whole "am I or aren't I"? thing. Grrrrrr.

6) I can be SUCH a procrastinator, if it is something I don't really want to do. If it is something I DO want to do, I can be quite my OCD self and have that NEED I can't control to get it DONE and done NOW. I can't stop myself.

7) I still sleep with my stuffed pig Christopher, yup it is true. I am so used to having his stuffed bow tie in my hand that sometimes I need to grab him from the side of my bed and hold his tie in order to fall back to sleep. Do NOT judge!!

8) I can't handle judgmental people. They are the bane of my existence, them with their smug eyes thinking they know everything, when in reality they know NOTHING. Why is it they think they have an all knowing knowledge, when they have no knowledge of how people feel when they are sick in ways...I just can't understand it. There is NO reason why people should feel they can judge you, most especially, when they have no inside knowledge of what you are going through.

9) I am a wimp when it comes to needles,etc. I turn even whiter, if that is possible considering I am invisible as it is, and feel nauseated,etc. I am actually glad blood banks don't WANT my blood because I am a diabetic, otherwise, YIKES! I am O negative so everyone would WANT my blood, the whole universal donor thing. Katie goes in ALL the time, they are constantly CALLING!! But because of my Diabetes I can't donate and I am SO bad, I am happy i have an excuse!! I can bearly give the tubes of blood needed for blood tests, so a whole pint?!! Aggghhh!!

10) I still feel quite lost. I am not good but am glad my appointment with my psychiatrist isn't until the 10th, now that I feel like crap in a different way. I am really hoping if I get on a mood stabilizer, I will feel less...lost. Okay anyway, that is my ten honest things!

I tage the following people. And you better do it, cuz I have no energy to track you down and tell you, but if you really read my blog like you say, then you have NO excuse.

Mother Goose
Whitney R.
Amander
Erin the Great
Alyson
Donna
Danielle
Julie
Mommy Madness
Mina