Would You Like Some Cheese With That Whine?

Would it seem immature if I told you I wanted to throw something on the floor, stomp my feet, and have a hissy fit, until I was made miraculously better of my current ailments? Crap. I knew you were going to say that. What about if I do it mentally, because it is too late, I am doing it in my brain right now! In fact, lil Wendy is even on her butt on the floor, banging her feet and her fists on the floor having the temper tantrum from HELL.

I am just SO sick of being SICK! I think my Mom was right about the Topamax being what caused the projectile vomit feeling because since we went down to 100mg I am starting to not feel that feeling, for the first time, but I am still having trouble with the constipated thing. So I have to suck back Metamucil or take Amitiza, which is doing nothing much at all. So you might be thinking, Wendy that is one thing gone though so you must be excited. Well, you are right in the fact that not feeling like I am going to go all Linda Blair on everyone, is a relief. It IS. That was the scariest aspect of it ALL.

However, something else is worsening. My cough/respiratory inflamation thing. I was sure it was at it's worse the day we saw the doctor, constant cough, ribs wit stabbing pain, etc. But it has been getting worse. The cough is worsening, more often, getting a barky sound sometimes. It is hard to breath even on the Pregnazone, so my parents have me taking an inhaler. I can feel a kind of raspy, crackling when I cough, and I know that this is probably a BAD sign. The fever is going nowhere and MAN, when I cough I get SO hot, I feel like I am going to explode!

I am just so tired of feeling like doing nothing, going nowhere...I am always in the house just laying on the couch watching BAD summer TV. Nothing good is on in the summer. (Okay lucky for me a few good shows are on at night this summer but still, those are rare times) I am just feeling very belligerent and pouty and want my turn to wake up and feel like a person who can breathe and eat normal and go out and have a fun day out or something. Right now, with all my meds and the codeine cough medicine, I sleep like 12 hours and spend the other 12 others awake feeling exhausted, laying down. That makes NO sense!

Yes I AM complaining about sitting at home, doing nothing but watching TV! Yes, it CAN be too much! TRUST ME, this has been going on almost 1 MONTH and 1 WEEK LONG!!!