Tribute, Rodanthe and Me

First, I want to thank Cajoh who wrote a Tuesday Tribute, which I am a part of, you can read the post here. Quite a few of my blog friends are also mentioned and I think it is great to see their answers to Cajoh's questions, and why this blogger is tributing them...if that is a word, LOL!! So thank you Cajoh, that is so nice!! And I SO appreciate the comparison to Siskel and Ebert!! :)

Actually, LOL, I watched a movie tonight I had never seen before. I watched "Nights in Rodanthe" starring Richard Gere and Diane Lane. Okay, I would definitely say this is a chick flick....you guys who watch them too, GO YOU! It made me laugh, go awwww, cry, etc. And it is a romance also, thus it is totally a chick flick.

Adrian (Lane) has been seperated from her husband for 7 months. He cheated and she has been trying to get herself over this horrible bump in the road, while taking care of their two children, including a teen daughter who seems to loathe her. While her kids are with Dad, she is going to Inn-sit for her BFF in Rodanthe. Before cheater leaves, he tells Adrian he wants them to get back together, which is just a bit too much for her to talk about right THEN, so she says they will talk when he gets back, she needs time to think. She heads to the Inn, where she will have all of one client while BFF is gone. BFF hates the cheater, pleads with Adrian not to take him back. ( I personally agree)

Paul (Gere) is a doctor, who seems just plain lost. He seems sad and angry and lonely. He is the one client at the inn. He seems to be there not to enjoy the gorgeous scenery or anything about the town, there is something dark weighing him down. He doesn't even appreciate the inn, and people I WANT to live in that Inn!! It is unbelievably amazing, all the nuances and decks, all on a pristine beach. Adrian tries to treat him as a normal guest but he doesn't want to be that alone, so he joins her for dinner in the kitchen. And things are revealed, her husband wandering and now wanting back into their life, he having a son who barely knows him. And that he is a doctor and something bad happened, you see through his flashbacks.

As the movie progresses you see that they are both lost, in some way, and they begin to be honest with the other, painstakingly so. And through some snooping on Adrians' part, you find out what Paul is in Rodanthe for, and why he is being such a....jerk about it. Why he feels he can't do what needs to be done. Why he is scared. You see why Adrian is so uncertain about taking her husband back, when he tells his children about wanting to get back together with their Mom and that Mom hasn't jumped at the chance (not that they even know WHY their parents seperated) which makes her the bad guy. She wants her kids to be happy...does she have to sacrifice what she had dreamt of for their happiness? When she first met her husband, she was an artist, she worked with wood, but because of how her life went, the art was put away, her dreams put away. Why? Does it have to be like this?

So a connection is made as they deal with what they are going through and the storm that begins to rage around them. The extent of their connection? No, I am not going to ruin it! Does Adrian take her husband back? Can Paul find peace and forge a relationship with his son, a doctor working in Ecquador? Can either of them find the happiness they so obviously need and crave? Will their happiness be together or apart, in seperate lives? And what about the twist you are not expecting? How will it impact one or both of them? And their children...can they be happy with their parents decisions, and can they be close again?

Grab your tissues ladies and watch this movie. Diane Lane is an actress I love, and she and Gere both deliver in this movie. What I like about Diane Lane is she lets the audience FEEL what she is feeling. She is not just showing you what her character feels, but letting you inside the characters' heart and soul. I mean, you people HAVE seen Under The Tuscan Sun right?!! Amazing, that is a MUST SEE if you have not seen it, kiddies.

Today is a low day. It is just one of those days where you are in the dumps, and your mind will not shut up. A thousand things you don't want to think about are swirling around your brain, making you miserable. I am TRYING to use the imagery my Mom gave me. Play "Whack-A-Mole" in my head. Each time a thought pops up, slam the crap out of it like those bloody moles, pushing it out of my head. Is it not totally working, not always, but sometimes I see the image of taking that big soft hammer thing and slamming down on a thought, making it go away, and it is nice. Thus, I give you all the Whack A Mole technique invented by MY Momma. Feel free to use it. Seriously, this is the one thing I was really good at in therapy. Visual techniques. I still use them obviously, from this whole paragraph. LOL.

Ohhh it is 12:17am, Happy Wednesday people!

Teen Idols and Angels

I am currently obsessed with watching Confessions of a Teen Idol. I find it absolutely fascinating. I know all the guys on there, even if I didn't watch them/listen to them. I mean this show is addictive! You have 7 guys who used to be teen idols, who want that fame back. They wanna be in movies, tv, on the radio again, whatever.
You've got a guy from Fame, one from TJ Hooker, he had THE hair. You got the guy from the original Blue Lagoon (still a good looking man). Jamie Walters whose song I loved, and he did get a bad rap from 90210 when they turned his character into an abuser...signs went from I ♥ Jaime to STOP HITTING DONNA! That helped burn his career. You have David Chok....something, he played Cody on Baywatch. The blonde one. You have Jeremy Jackson, who was Hasselhoff's kid on Baywatch before drugs and that sex tape ruined him. Sad, he is HOTTTTT! Look at the chiseled cheek bones on "Hobie"! And he has been clean for 8 years now, so go Jeremy! And then you have Eric Nies...those of you who don't know him from Real World Season 1 or The Grind...well I don't know what to say. He WAS hot. Still could be, but Eric has changed. How you may ask? Well David arrived at the house with a pickup truck of strange excercise equipment and box after box after cooler of grains and nuts and wheatgrasses and other green things that look scary. He looks scary. Like some hippie that hasn't taken a good shower or shave in a year or two. But it was like, alright, he likes to be healthy now and is a bit of a hippie. Not so fast. He only sleeps on this weird thing, he drinks these grass green shakes all the time, he makes the other guys try them, talks about cleansing colons all the time, proper bowel movements,etc. HE is a nut. When they tried to do make-overs he refused basically ALL the clothes they showed him in the store. Finally they found something he was okay with made with natural fibers,etc, and he was appeased. *rolls eyes* Yeah cuz I would SO refuse new pricey clothes to improve my image!! And on the last episode I saw...he uses his own urine as a hair rinse. Pees into a cup and runs it over and throught his hair. Says it what makes his hair THAT shiny...yeah it is shiny, and he even brought up websites after he showed Jeremy this, which showed how many cultures use urine for many things...yeah it didn't impress them either. Eric is just WEIRD now.

Anyway, Jeremy is really good-looking as I said, and I could see him landing roles on tv or movies IF he has talent, he WAS a kid on Baywatch, so we will see. David Cho.... he is just a pretty face. He refused some of the excercises the guys had, like try out for an Aussie commercial, which most of the guys jumped at eagerly, but he was all " I don't want to be known as a commercial guy, that will pigeon-hole me", even after Baio and Hervey (both ex tv stars and now the producers) reminded him that HUGE stars do commercials, he refused. Loser. No one remembers him for anything but a bare chest on Baywatch and he sneers at commericals?! He won't make it, go back to modeling dude. Eric...uhhh he was on reality tv and then a excercise show...WHAT he thought he could get back into, I have no idea. And he left at the end of the last episode I saw. They, all the 7 guys, were giving away something that included themselves, for an auction for charity. All the guys made from $800 to $2000. Eric goes up and is all "a night with me and I will serve you a raw food picnic"....and there were crickets it got so silent. No one was interested. Then someone said "$100 for every article of clothing you are willing to take off: and he was pissed, NO, he flat out said. Fially, one person said $1000 if you take your shirt off. Now I didn't think THAT was a big deal. He was known for The Grind, where he never had a shirt on, and the dude walks around bare-chested all the time. But the look in his eyes, and for this the guys were going DO IT, It's for charity! And zen-master is ALL about charity. And $1000 is halfway to a well, this charity is Drop In The Bucket, giving other countries wells to drink from. So he ended up doing it.

But I didn't realize how angry he would be, I knew he was pissed, but until he talked to Adrian Zmed as he was packing his truck back up, I didn't think of it from his eyes. The old Eric would have whipped his clothes off until he was in his skivvies. MAybe even less, did anone else SEE him on the Real World/Road Rules challenges? But, he has spent years trying to get away from that image and in one night, he felt degraded all over again, something he never wanted to feel again, so he left. Which bummed a lot of the guys out, especially Jeremy who Eric had convinced to do a 7 day colon cleanse with those shakes and now Eric is gone on Day 3 and took most of his...grasses...with him.

Anyway, some of these "tasks" have been good for them, some bad. And they do group therapy, which has been a real eye opener for some of them. But even TV Guide knocked the show for what they did on the first episode. The guys were told 1000 of their fans were going to be at an event with them, and they got dolled up and arrived and were behind the red curtains, hearing the appleause, feeling the electricity of being BACK, and the curtains part...to just Scott Baio and the Hervey guy from Wonder Years. It was like a punch in the gut. TV Guide aid it was like kicking a kitten! It was supposed to teach them how fleeting fame is, but I gotta say, it just made me angry for them. Other things have been really good. Confronted with a person who was either negatively or positively effected by their fame. That was amazing for some of the guys, they finally saw how it affected a sister, a brother, a friend, etc. Then there are ones that are just, sorry guys, entertaining for US. The guys sat behind a secret mirror while a panel discussed them from an old pic to an updated pic. Ohhh only Chris Atkins got good remarks. They say he could be a Robert Redford actor, but poor Jeremy, he had long hair before the makeover, was called a drug dealer, etc. because of his look. Ouch, when you are a recovering addict.

So I am sorry, it is brainless mind candy, but it is good fun! They have 5 of the episodes in entirety on VH1 so if you dare, go watch it!

And here is Jaime's one hit wonder, How Do You Talk to an Angel. And in the video is the cast of The Heights, his first show which I liked and they yanked it after like 3 episodes!

Hope to Feel This One Day

This particular song is sticking in my head. It is not where I am, as many of you know, but it kind of encompasses where I WANT to be. Yeah I would like to be in this place NOW, but if it could ever happen period, I would really love that. I am not sure I feel the hope of this song even, not yet. But it is where I hope to be someday.



"For the first time is such a long. long time, I know, I'll be okay", now doesn't that sound wonderful? And "This cycle never ends, gotta fall in order to mend", well that sounds kind of where I am now. But the chorus...it just makes me want to feel that hope. And maybe that is progress even? Wanting to GET to a place where I HOPE the pain goes away? And if THAT ever does happen for me, maybe I will be able to play this song and FEEL it, feel that it IS a brand new day. I was just listening to the song earlier and these thoughts went through my mind. I WANT to feel this way...and hope it IS really possible.

Flashback Video 2/8/09

En Vogue Giving Him Something He Can Fee
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I LOVED En Vogue, when the whole group was still together. Why does one person always think they are TOO good to still be in a group?! I don't think the one that left ever had her own album and En Vogue was not the same without her. These were the days. It is especially interesting as ONE ex-Voguer will be on Survivor...but can she even last past day One? Well we shall all have to tune in and See. I know I will, love that show. The drama, the betrayal...the fun!! Anyone else like to EAT while it's on? Something about them having NO food makes me get up and get food, LOL.


Music Quote as to my feelings/mood today:
“ I don’t know what to pray for, I don’t know what to say. But my heart is breaking and I am thinking ‘things shouldn’t be this way’.” - Addison Road